Cerclage Pregnancy

Never heard of it until it happened to me and it was definitely a surprise. You would think after having two kids before that, nothing can really do that but boy was I wrong. Let me start from the beginning.

A Cerclage pregnancy means you have an incompetent cervix (I hate that word, incompetent.) That basically means you have a weak cervix and causes you to go into preterm labor, which can cause you to loose a healthy baby. This is something that almost happened to me, I was having contractions at 18 weeks but did not recognize it. Went in for a regular exam and thankfully the ultrasound tech caught it just in time!

The hardiest part about going through this whole process, especially for the first time, was going through it during COVID which means that having friends and family come visit you is not an option at this time. I go in depth about this on my youtube channel

Going through that whole process is hard, which is why it’s good to have a support system, join support groups on Facebook, and know it is more common then you think! The success rate when you have the cerclage put in is higher than you would imagine (85/90%)

I Like the odds.

Family? Trip

Going on a trip with my children father was not weird at all. I thought I would be awkward, and uncomfortable, and my anxiety would be out the roof but it felt like normal. It felt like I’ve been missing him this whole time, my rock, my kids rock, it felt like home. I was so happy to see him but could show him that because we are not together and we haven’t spoken about it lately. He wanted to put that conversation off until next year because he says he have a lot on his plate at the moment. A part of me gets anxiety because I feel like I need him, I feel like every since we went our separate ways, although my life in the career aspect is looking up, everything else seems to be out of control and I am just trying to whole all my eggs together with no basket in sight. Don’t really know how to tell him that though, never seem to be the right time.

The day we went to Disney world he surprised me with matching outfits, I was shocked, I kind of told me how he feels because he use to do that for us while we was together. Matching shoes, shirts, and pants and our girls was matching with my nephew for his birthday, we looked real put together. We did hit some challenges though, summer didn’t really know renardo. She would not go with him, she was very hesitant, summer loves food, like absolutely love food and when he tried to feed her and she would not budge. And that is when it hit me that being away from him for so long is making an effect on their relationship because although she calls him daddy, that connection as her father is going away and that is our fault.

But out side of that everything went smoothly and the girls and I needed a break from the real world, even though it was only for 2 days. I thank god my anxiety was ok, and I didn’t get a chance to over think, it felt good to not be overthinking and just living in the moment. I was able to get some awesome pictures out of it.

Until Next Time…

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If you’ve been following me for awhile you noticed a couple things have changed on my end. I recently deleted all my older post, and changed my domain. My reasoning ? I am starting over. Why ? Because I feel like it is time. I changed, my life has changed, and my kids have changed a lot. I do have a youtube channel, it is geared towards my kids and I natural hair and how I take care of it to keep it healthy. If that is something your interested in then it would be awesome to have you as a follower. It is the same name as y title, beyoutiful_greene. But on here, it is real life issues when it comes to motherhood, love life, and other issues in my real life that i just want to unleash on here. My diary.

So welcome, and I hope you stick around, if not, I hope to see you on my youtube channel.

Until Next Time…